Thea 101
March 23, 2004 � 12:47 a.m.

Regarding This Girl:

My name means �goddess� in Greek, and Thea is also the wife of her brother Hyperion, gave birth to Helios (sun), Eos (dawn), and Selene (moon). She is the goddess from whom light emanates and considered especially beautiful (at that time�every heroine in Greek myths seem to be the most beautiful woman�bah!), but my mom named me after a Spanish baby she had held when she was little, who the thought was beautiful and had a pretty name.

I was born in NJ on Feb. 18. I am 28 years old.

I was born clinically dead, with my two front teeth already cutting through, and a head full of hair. How�s that for an entrance?

I am the only daughter.

I am the oldest.

I tested highly for school, and they wanted to skip me directly to advanced second grade classes, but my mom decided it wouldn�t be good for me.

I call my birth father the sperm donor because he basically acts as is my brother and I don�t exit unless he wants something.

I really loved the sperm donor once upon a time, but I really hate the sperm donor now.

I am a realist with an over active imagination and extreme flights of fancy.

We had to move around a lot when I was younger�partly because sperm donor was in the military and partly because the Queen didn�t always pay her bills on time.

I had a hard time making friends.

I am a walking contradiction.

I got picked on�A LOT.

My teachers thought it possible that I had psychological problems or came from an abused home because I was so withdrawn most days or acting out on others.

I used to steal a lot when I was younger.

My brother was my best friend when we were little. I used to make him take care of my dolls and we would have tea parties. (he is going to KILL me for telling that)

I am very stubborn and loyal�and most times, that�s not a good combination.

I lived in Germany for a year and traveled all over Europe on the military�s dime.

My grandmother loved me more than anyone has ever loved me, even my mom.

I pretty much raised my brother, but for a long time, we didn�t get along because my mom favored him over me and didn�t try to hide it at all

I fear love more than I fear death.

I read a lot.

I am a hopeless romantic�I crave to be loved�I am completely IN love WITH the idea of love.

Parents trust me with their kids, and use me as an example when they say, �All your friends should be like Thea�.� Man, I love that!

Girls don�t like me much, most times, so most of my friends are guys.

I do not like to apologize so I never say anything if there is a chance I might be wrong, and I never say anything that I don�t mean.

I am a very open and compassionate person.

Younger guys tend to have a thing for me�I don�t know why.

I hold record-breaking grudges, but it takes me a long time to get to that point.

I don�t have too many people in my life that I consider friends.

I only have one friend that I have known for most of my life, and that is Kye. Kye and I are secretly in love with each other and will more than likely die denying it

I can be very spiteful, cruel, and vindictive if need be.

I have had sex with 8 men in my life.

Most of them were boyfriends, two were just really good friends because we didn�t want �titles�, and one was strictly a fuck buddy.

I am very shy�but when I drink I am a huge flirt.

I NEED to be in control, but I really WANT to be dominated.

I am the responsible one to most of my friends.

A lot of people have called me talented.

Some people have called me beautiful.

I was once approached to be a professional model and was told I�d have clothes made just for me, but I never showed up for the �inspection� the board needed to have to see if I really �had what it took� to be a spokesperson. Apparently not, if I didn�t even show up for that.

I can be anything and everything to any and everyone, which could be considered a sociopath�but since I don�t fall into that criteria�I am at least one hell of an actress.

I used to want to be a ballerina and I took dance classes until the sperm donor made a smart-ass remark about me in my tutu and I never went to another class after that.

My feelings get hurt a lot easier than it seems and I am nowhere�s near as tough as I act most of the time.

I have a social anxiety so I smoke and drink to relax around groups of people.

I have a bass, a jumbo acoustic, and resonator guitar�and I can�t play any of them one lick.

I learned to play the piano in college, but I have pretty much forgotten how to do it, though I plan on taking lessons again.

I tend to put people on pedestals only to be devastated when they show flaws.

I have a thing for violence, bad boys, and weapons�especially swords.

I was once in a rap group with my twin cousins, but they kicked me out because I �didn�t fit the image��i.e. too smart, I wrote all the rhymes, and I was too fat. I still hate them to this day for that

I would be one hell of a diva if I was good enough at something to attain that status.

I really only have one cousin I really love, and that�s Squirrel, my partner in crime most of my life. She was as much my nemesis as she was my friend when we were younger

I like to be alone, but I hate feeling lonely.

I have an adopted brother, Eddie, (who�s really my cousin that my mom had custody of) who is a career criminal that I never see anymore.

His brother, my youngest brother Chuck, is a world-class idiot but I still love him to death.

Chuck and Darryl have a recording studio, where they write and produce and I am very proud of them.

I tend to have crushes on people I admire, and it doesn�t really take much for me to admire people because I admire things that most people never even notice about them.

I am an undercover freak.

I wrote my first story the summer of my third grade year.

I like sex�a lot of sex�all of the time�so much so that I would be perfectly happy being someone�s love slave at their beck and call 24-7, like in the movie �Secretary�.

I have always excelled in English and I have always sucked at math.

I am haunted by the past.

In 7th grade, poems became more important to me than my stories.

I used to have a comic book I drew and wrote called Girls Inc. that is so damn corny now, bust out laughing every time I think about it.

I think women are more interesting to look at then men.

I was a very precocious child.

I have been over-the-moon-IN-love twice.

I have been a fool FOR love many times.

I can be really anal sometimes.

I can sometimes be too blunt so I bite my tongue�a lot.

I am a Generation X�er to the max baby�this is the only stereotype I fit into.

Sometimes, I just don�t feel like talking and won�t talk to anyone for days.

I am really moody and people always mistake my sadness for bitchiness.

Of all the friends that I have ever had, Jenny has been the only one I can really say was a best friend and knew me the best. I have loved her most of all.

My brother Darryl is my soul mate.

I want to be a writer.

I have written a book that has been getting �edited� for like�4 years now.

I have a godson that everyone in my family refers to as my son�including me.

I would die for the people I love�luckily, I don�t love many people.

Sometimes I really do believe I am crazy�and that scares me.

It takes me a long time consider someone a friend.

Most people that don�t know me like that, think I am a bitch.

People like to confide in me for some reason, even if I don�t really know them.

I want to be a therapist or a psychologist.

I did not finish college and I am in debt because of it.

I have been engaged twice and I wasn�t really in love with neither one of them

I am great when someone is in a crisis�but I suck when it�s me or my family.

I like to sketch, though I�m not as good as I used to be.

I fall in love easily, take a long time to admit to this love, and take even longer to fall out of love.

I didn�t get my driver�s license until I was 23.

I LOVE pretty things.

I am not the average girl.

I am not the typical black girl.

I am not the stereotypical fat girl.

I am not a pretty girl and I don�t really like myself much.

I hate it when people compliment me because I find it hard to accept them.

I don�t trust ANYONE.

I�d rather depend on myself than ask for help for anything from anyone else.

I love vastly and unwisely and as much as I know this, I can�t seem to do anything to change it.

I have wished for death many times, but I love world and want to do too many things to try to bring it upon myself anymore. (except by drinking and smoking�so I am ambiguous�.sue me)

I believe in signs, and fate, and destiny.

More than anything else, I want to have a baby