konichiwa bitches
November 05, 2004 � 11:28 p.m.

Today�s Weather: Like, totally bitchy to the max

Konichiwa bitches!!

That�s my new greeting to everyone. The looks I get are freaking priceless.

I wish I had some exciting things to tell you. I wish that some extraordinary things had happened to me during my hiatus. I wish I had a fucking life...but alas�I don�t. And everything that has happened has been bad�like really bad.

Like, fuck-pass-me-a-razor bad.

I don�t know what it is. One bad thing happens then another�then it�s like this fucking domino effect where as soon as I set things up for me to do, bad luck comes and knocks them all down one by one in slow motion, no less.

I will not bore anyone with all the sordid details of the evil jinx, because basically, just thinking about everything makes me want to cry. I wrote all about it here since it was the only place I could write while at work. And I will NOT talk about the election upset (to me) or the childish way people (like me) are handling the loss and like berating and slamming and even threatening people on the other side (not like me)�or how fucking lazy people between the ages 18-24 were the most people to register and the fewest to actually show up and vote. No�can�t�won�t be political�I�m too fucking worn out to be political. Let�s just say I am really upset and disappointed and scared what will go down these next four years�and just leave it at that.

I haven�t really written here because after I got my computer set up, the damn thing started acting up again and my connection keeps timing out in the middle of a surf session, and I can�t even open half the diaries to read them (I have been trying to catch up�really�but unlike myself, you guys have lives and boy�do you like to write about them!!) so I just end up getting frustrated and log off. My place still isn�t 100% either. I still have stuff to put away and what not, though, I will say�it is mostly done and I freaking love it!! I just wish I had a better couch ad a computer table that isn�t two bumps shy off falling apart. Besides a few minor irritants with the place (which I talked to Landlady today and she will fix it), I�m pretty happy with my new place.

Let�s see�what�s exciting�? Oh�I told Swiz to hit the bricks and not come back�though�I�m not sure if he heard that declaration, either. It was after he came looking for me at the Coast last Saturday, got mad that I wasn�t fawning all over him, and came back to my place to fuck me 40 ways from Sunday�one way being the BAD way�the DO NOT ENTER way. I don�t know why he always tries that shit when he�s drunk, but this time he really hurt me and I screamed and shoved him off when it was like he couldn�t hear me. At the time we laughed. At the time. But when he fell asleep next to me, I grew angrier and angrier and when he tried to slink out without me knowing, I said, �Don�t ever bother coming back, I mean it,� but he didn�t seem to hear me and I was way too fucking drunk to raise up and solidify my point. I just turned over and went to sleep. But before then it was hilarious how I wasn�t even going to call him and he just shows up. So funny how he got pissy when I wasn�t in his face or all over him. Fucking hysterical when he asked if I had missed him and I did nothing more than stare at him.

It was fucking great.

But now�he�s gone�I think�and that�s done. And you know�I really don�t fucking give a shit. Go me!!

Adam has informed me that he wants me back. Again, details are in my other journal. I have decided to accept his proposal. I am totally willing to give us another shot. Right now though, it�s been like 2 weeks since I wrote him, and I haven�t gotten anything back.

I�m trying to be positive. I�m TRYING to be POSITIVE. I�M TRYING TO BE POSITIVE!!!!!!

So�that�s the skinny on my life up till now. Boring, I know�but hey�it�s an update. I will be writing more here soon.

The woman you love to hate will be back right after these messages.