truncated thoughts
May 03, 2004 � 1:13 a.m.

Quickly...as I am falling asleep here...

...while I'm thinking of it, why have I been so sleepy lately, like my body can not get enough of it?

Anyway, I hate Cowboy. He ruined my Friday night at Satan's gig, and now I am floundering in thoughts of last year, the betrayal, the baby...and how he treats me like shit and talks shit about me to his stupid ass girlfriends like I was the asshole that hurt HIM...

HURT HIM!?!?!?

And though that has me fucking miserable, I am still not entirely in bad spirits, I believe my good mood is slowly coming back...though today...my car has been acting...strangely...and I am so afraid of what that could mean as I am running on empty in the moolah department...

and today, I was surrounded by laughter and sunlight and stories and good music and friends....friends with smiles and drinks and pretty faces that were glad to see me...and I was drowning in love...and I couldn't get enough of it.

I love my beautiful friends....the REAL friends...the ones that smile when I'm happy and hold my hand when I cry...I love them...I love them all to pieces...

and I walked through my door with a shitload of food, Coronas, Heinekens, and margarita mix that I didn't have to pay or ask for...

how the fuck does a day get better than that?

Tomorrow...I promise...new temp will be up...and I will explain all.