rock da strip-pah...rock da strip-pah
October 09, 2003 � 8:03 p.m.
First Entry Today
Mood-Hungry
My Immortal-Evanesence
"How you feel now, stupid mother fucker? You could have had yourself some pussy!!"-A Low Down Dirty Shame
Recurring thought-Damn...I have to clean when I get home.....
A classic "What the Fuck?!!?" moment-I am fiddling around and trying to figure out how to make my page better, and to save my life, I can't get those damn option fields on my page to work!!!!
2 Hours...
2 HOURS I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT THE FUCK I'M DOING WRONG!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
MONKEY FUCK!!!
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So my apartment is a complete and total smelly wreck and since I'm the only one that gives a fuck, I have to leave a long day of working at Nuthouse123 to go home and clean up after my grown ass brother just so I can feel comfortable and cook dinner in a clean kitchen. I mean, I'm domesticated and all but come on!!
If I'm gonna be working this damn hard I could at least have a man to come home to...
or a dog...how about a dog?
A cat?
A fish?
A pet rock?
Something?
Damn!!
*sigh*
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Jenny I.M. me earlier and we have made plans to wander on down to AC tomorrow night and visit her friend that's filling in at some strip club. Atlantic City is a bit far for a damn strip club, but hell...I'll be near the ocean and that's all I need. I'm a bit nervous, actually. AC niggas can get a bit rowdy and I have no clue where this place is at. I just hope it's in a good locale and won't be too crowded. More than that...man...these bitches better be banging!! I mean, this is my first stint at a strip club and I would be vastly disappointed if they didn't look like the pretty girls on G-String Divas...or the girls in the videos. And the costumes!! MMMMMMMM....I would be in heaven just from looking at some banging ass costumes and shoes. I love stripper shoes!!!
Jenny says it's the Diva in me that's so drawn to them...Jack says it's the drag queen in me.
Since I'm not a guy DRESSING as a girl, I'm just going to take that as some kind of gay compliment and leave it at that.
That damn Jack!!!
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I wrote my first entry in my new journal. Of course it's about Swiz. Well actually, as fucked up as this might sound, the first thing I wrote was a poem...about...Cowboy....ugh!!!
{{{{{ShIvErS}}}}}
I must have been smoking mad crack to write that shit!! But it was the moon...even the poem says so. I'll probably put it in here so I don't lose it.
I have to print some pics for it here at work...I might as well do that now so no one will bitch during the day.
Like I'm the only one that does shit like that.
Riiiiiiiiiiggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhht!!!
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Oh...I bought a snack pack for banners and can I say that was so fucking stupid to do because I don't even know how to make banners and the ones I did make at some free sites were so damn cheesey I had to laugh through my pissed off-ness and I just hope that folks will see them as me being funny or quriky and not stupid and cheap.
I wish I knew how to make them on my own computer! I have the fat pics and everything!!
Ah well.
So when you see my beat ass banners...please don't think any less of me...not that you think the world of me now, but just don't like write me off totally...not that I'm saying you don't have loyalty...but you don't have to worship me or nothing...not that I would mind if you did....even though that WOULD kinda freak me out...not that I would mind being freaked out by a crazed fan...but...you know...well...whatever.
If you write it...they will come...
Hey!!
Maybe that can be a banner, huh?
Yes?!?
No?!?!
Well fuck you anyway!!!
*sigh*
I really wish I wasn't too poor to afford therapy...cuz I need that shit bad as hell.