you move me
August 13, 2004 � 4:57 p.m.

First Entry Today

Today�s Weather: Bitchy with accumulating PMS clouds

Thank you all for the kind words you have given me. Things are starting to kilter even, though not really, but at least I�m learning how to cope a bit better and not feel so overwhelmed�

Though punting the shit out of my cat still seems like a good idea�sometimes.

This was the sweetest thing anyone has ever left me in my guest book. Sorry it took so long to acknowledge it, but I don�t get emailed like I am supposed to when someone comments, so I didn�t find it til last night�and when I found it, it made me cry.

Thank you so much mystery Christian (if you ever come back). Your words mean a lot to me.

The note? It went:

thea, I never read blogs, so I have absolutely no idea how I ended up here. however, your writing intrigued me, so I skipped back to the beginning of your written adventures and... our lives are nothing alike, but your heart is so pure, so loving, and your soul is so clean and so desperate to do good, that I was significantly touched and had to write you to tell you to please, ignore this run-on sentence, and please don't give up on yourself. life hands us all sorts of situations that are incoherent and impossible... you seem to deal with each one with a grace and loving purity that is inspiring. gosh, you go girl. seriously. I would love to have half of the heart that you have.

7:33 pm - Thursday,August 5, 2004

Now that was absolutely gorgeous. Thank you so much.

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And for these guys:

Teetsie- I want to thank you for all the support you have been giving me lately. I haven�t really had the time to sit down and tell you, but I did try to go to a few homes and visit the elderly, but 3 homes told me they do not allow people on the premises that aren�t family or with the weekly play group, and the other one said they used to allow mentors to come and read or visit with the fogies, but�people were coming in and disturbing them more and stealing from them so they no longer allow non-family member visitations. Ain�t that fucked up?

And I told my mom about asking her doc about the meds, so next time she goes, she will SUPPOSEDLY ask about them. She lives to make life difficult for me, thus making it harder than need be on herself. I�m trying to convince her that she shouldn�t be working anymore and needs to look into assistance for people that can�t work due to medical problems, but she insists on working. Normally that�s a good trait to have, but when it�s wearing you down and making you sick�well�.there comes a damn time to call it quits.

So thank you girlie�I really appreciate the advice, so keep it coming. You always seem to know everything about anything going wrong with me, and your encouragement means a lot. Love ya, girl. **HUGS**

Angel- Girl, I keep meaning to call you, but our scheduals are so off due to the time difference, I never know when it would be cool to call you. So�if you want, you just call me whenever. You know I�m up till all times of the night. Thank you for always leaving me a little something when I write.

I hope I can find what I want to give you for your birthday before it�s too late!!

Mad love girlie!! **KiSSes**

And Poppy darlin�, you were right�it does all seem to hit me at once..but it�s slowing down�and I�m trying to catch my groove�I�m trying�

Hey Chickie, I�m sorry it seems like I never have much to say when I IM ya, but I�m always at work and get distracted. But it means a bunch to me that you even acknowledge me. Rock on, babygirl.

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Also, I think I might want to change my template soon. I LOVE THE LAYOUT I have now, but I�m itching for some color. But the set up of this one is so clean and uncluttered...I don�t know. Maybe I�ll see if my Wench can just change the colors and the pics. I�m thinking Jessica Rabbit�or Tinkerbell�or Bettie Page�

So if you�re bored and want to make me a new temp�ANYBODY�let me know.

I love it when you dote on me�I really, really do�

So how�s about a hook up�.huh?

I love you all.