could I be any more boring?!!?
August 23, 2004 � 11:43 p.m.
First Entry Today
Today�s Weather: Spacey and disconnected haze hanging along the horizon
Well, long time no write�well�long time, no life.
Seriously, I am one boring ass bitch as of late. All I do troll through my Live Journal addictions and my favorites here and trying to accumulate some new reads. I�ve come to the conclusion that I am a major pussy because there are some on my list that I don�t even read anymore, but I don�t want to kick them off my list because�well�that just hurts feelings, you know? But if they�ve been gone for like months�what then?
Until I come to a valid solution, I am now adding new reads to my other diary. Yeah, that�s right, I�ve found a way to pour my life into three different places, but this is the only real one. The other ones are�cryptic�I guess. But who cares�no one reads them anyway anymore because I suck.
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I went to my uncle�s house for dinner last night.
He is one queer motherfucker, boy�I tell you.
Not queer as in gay (though I DO think he is �a gay� and just refuses to admit it), I mean queer as in he is just weird. It is impossible to believe that the same mother raised him in the same house as my mom. How can siblings be THAT different? I mean, nothing alike!! And his queerness? Well, he said I could wash my clothes over there, but not unless I had my own detergent. I get there, and he has a fucking closet full of detergent just sitting there. He lives alone, but buys shit in bulk, like he�s expecting to be trapped in his apartment one day�like it�s a damn fallout shelter. He makes all this damn money, but never buys himself new clothes or shoes�only sneakers�like once every two years. He has all this food, all this money, and he�s all alone (not even a girlfriend�or boyfriend) but don�t ask him for anything. Oh no!! He�ll act like you asked him to cut off his manhood. He�s a nice guy, really, graduated college with a master�s degree, and is the dumbest smart guy I know. NO COMMON SENSE AT ALL. Sometimes I wonder how he has survived this long. And he�s rude sometimes�not to me, but other people. And he HATES black people�and yes�he�s black. I think I got my snideness about my race from him�because when I lived with him it was �nigger this and nigger that� and he hates the rest of our family and always puts down my black friends and treats them like shit�like he�s better than them somehow. He�s a white black man. But this is the worse, his ass has lived in Jersey his whole life�when and where the fuck did he get a southern accent from!?!?
I know�I sound like I hate him�but I don�t. I love him to pieces�but from a distance. He grates the shit out of my nerves when I�m around him too much. Everything about him irritates me.
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Trixie the demon cat has a new habit of jumping up on the counters in the kitchen. Yesterday she hopped her ass up there and punctured a hole in the meat I was defrosting and helped herself to some beef cubes. And her claws are getting out of control. I look like Freddy Kruger got a hold of me, I have so many damn scratches on me. She doesn�t mean to do it, and knowing this is the only thing that keeps me from hurling her into the wall. That shit hurts! But she follows me around like a furry shadow and greets me on the steps every night I come home, so I can�t help but love her. I just wish she didn�t love fucking me up so much. Maybe pain is how she shows love.
My cat is a sadist�go figure.
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I�m still a bit pissed about my burner. I don�t understand why it would play DVD�s too fast�unless it�s just for burning�not for playing. If anyone can give me any help in this�I�d be forever grateful.
My kingdom for a computer tech!
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Still no word from Jenny. I at least expected a reply about her telling Cowboy to give me my shit.
I know she's not going to address anything else I said.
I don't know why I even care anymore...but I do. I can't just turn love off like that...you know?
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I MIGHT be getting a truck. Stress might. My youngest brother Charlie had his sweet ass Jeep impounded, and they won�t let him get it out without his papers and license. Well, he can�t get one because it�s been suspended before he could get one for driving without one, so he can�t get the truck. Since Darryl paid to get it out, he told him he could have it. Darryl knows I need a new car and that I wanted to get a truck so he�s letting me get it. Two problems: Charlie doesn�t have the title and I have to get it insured and registered before I can pick it up and it has to get picked up by Friday.
I went from totally elated to disgusted within 10 minutes. We�re still going to try though�so pray for me�
Momma needs a new ride!!
Ya heard!?!!?
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I told you my life boring.