and then...
September 04, 2003 � 8:09 p.m.

Second Entry Today

Mood-Hungry and hating this place

Waterfall-Jimi Hendrix

"Call no man happy until he is dead."-Herodotus

Recurring thought-Where the fuck has Jenny been?!?

A classic "What the Fuck?!?!" moment-Getting my stitches out and now the skin around where the stitches were is all yellow and crusty!!

EEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!

WHAT HAVE THEY DONE TO MY FINGER?!?!

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Last night my favorite movie came on, Who Framed Roger Rabbit I love that damn movie. The blend of humans and cartoons was flawless. There weren't any seams or off timing or anything. It just amazes me. And Jessica...what girl didn't want to be Jessica Rabbit and what boy didn't want to fuck a watercolor after seeing that movie?!?!?

Huh? Who?

My bro came home and I was lying on the couch giggling my ass off and saying the lines (we do that in my family...it drives outsiders nuts!).

He stopped and looked at me, smiling, before shaking his head. "I love you, girl, you know that? Don't you ever change." he said as he disappeared into the bathroom. I smiled and wiped a bitch ass tear away. We don't say that to each other much and whenever he says it to me it catches me off guard and makes me cry every time.

The Bastard.

So today I got up super early and went to get my stitches out.

As soon as I rolled over in bed I stared out my window at the rain and started cursing my head off. I didn't know where my umbrella was and last night I had parked my car in east jabit because there weren't any parking spaces. So that meant I would look like a fucking drowned rat before I got to my car, which meant I would be wet in the waiting room.

Great.

Not only did I get wet on the way to the car, but I get to the car and my umbrella wasn't in the trunk. I stood there like an ass for like 5 minutes trying to find it but to no avail. So now I'm twice as wet as I should have been, and so pissed I felt like crying. I got in the car and banged the steering wheel and when some little jerk off passed by and looked in at me, I flinched at him and screamed, "What bitch? What the fuck you looking at?"

Well after he gave me a puzzled "fuck you" look and wandered off, I sat there and said to myself, "Now that wasn't nice." and then I felt all kinds of guilty.

Yeah...in other words, PMS had my hormones all out of whack this rainy morning.

I get to the office (after wandering around in the rain like an idiot for ten minutes because the stupid receptionist bitch didn't bother to tell me it was a CLUSTER of offices and I had to figure out which one was mine) and the receptionist lady (who I'm ALREADY pissed at) just ignores while I'm standing there waiting for her to acknowledge me, and speaks to the guy who walked in after me. I give her my "I know you see me here bitch and you're really staring to piss me the fuck off" look and she rolls her eyes and sarcastically says, "Can I help you?"

Okay...pissed meter is blinging at "DANGER" mark now.

I tell her my name and then I had to go through some bullshit about getting my health coverage switched for this one stupid ass visit and then I had to pay for what should have just been a follow up procedure and then I had to fill out those stupid ass forms and then I had to sit there (the only person in the office, mind you) for like 45 minutes before they called me back and then I had to sit in that little ass room waiting for the dumb ass doctor to come for another 15 minutes and then he finally comes in and asks me the same fucking questions I had just answered on the damn form and then he proceeds to rip my skin as he's cutting the stitches to only then abruptly leave me sitting there seeping for another 15 minutes until the nurse came back and gave me the "dumass" look and quietly told me I was free to go so I then had to walk back out into the rain and get wet all over again when I searched through my trunk for the umbrella again before then getting into my car and getting stuck behind every slow ass driver in the world to only then get cut off by this stupid cunt bitch when I was turning onto 70 and she swung out into my lane and she had the fucking nerve to look at me like I was wrong and then had even more fucking nerve to beep at me when I was turning into my street!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

*WHEW*

I feel better now.

And then...guess what I found in my back seat when I was getting out of my car, after the rain had stopped, to go into work?

My fucking umbrella.

Ain't that a bitch??!!?