pale november
November 12, 2003 � 7:25 p.m.
First Entry Today
Stayed the night at Jenny Girl�s last night. I don�t know why I feel like her place is like some sort of get away�a refuge�and I always feel safe and loved there.
I�ve never really felt safe and loved anywhere, so it�s a big thing to me.
I made her a good dinner that she actually ate for once, and we stayed up late bullshitting while I washed my clothes. It was fun. How we have fun doing nothing ever ceases to amaze me. We have stupid, running, inside jokes that we go through whenever Cowboy is around, and he just stands there looking so confused that it only makes us burst into uncontrollable giggles even harder, which turns into gut wrenching guffaws when he looks at us like we�re nutty and slowly leaves the room.
Dude�I so wish I had known her when I was younger. I might have had a bearable childhood if she had been around.
I guess bearable adulthood will have to do.
My Jenny Girl.
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So today the cat got kicked out of the bag on what�s been going on with the site (which sources informed me about Monday and made me swear to silence). So they offer that we fix stuff on the site, get PhotoShop on our computers, and we can rack up as much overtime as needed to get this done.
I just got yelled at for having overtime hours while doing my EVERYDAY duties.
Now that they�re shit out of luck, it�s ok for us to stay late and rack up hours to fix things that we will never get any recognition for.
You gotta love this place.
I�m going to do it. Not just for the over time or the PhotoShop on my PC, but for the experience. I�ll add a new skill to my repertoire, and I can�t knock that no matter how much I want to try. I�ve been trying to create my own template for my diary, but it�s coming along really slow and I really suck at the resizing and shit like that.
Hopefully, this will help me learn�and hopefully, my dad will let me have that extra computer at the house so I can start doing things at home and teach myself how to do certain things. Angel is always really great with helping my stupid ass, and maybe one day she�ll come here and I�ll surprise her.
Look�I did it all myself!!
Thanks for inspiring me Angel honey, and teaching me as much as you have.
I�ll get the hang of it�you just wait.
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Plus, I want to learn PhotoShop for when I start taking my pictures with my manual camera. I want to learn how to manipulate the pictures and all. My girl Janie is a GENIUS when it comes to these things, and if I get a fraction as good as she is I�d be happy as a pig in shit.
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Darryl had to go to court today for the four tickets he got a couple of weeks ago. The little lazy ass never even bothered to go to the DMV to get his paperwork, so Lord knows how it all worked out for him. I know he won�t be there when I get home tonight, he�s never there when I get home, so I�ll have to sit around worrying to I hear something from him. November 12. This day is like D-Day at my house! Darryl�s court date, my car�s oil change date, my friend�s birthday, the day our cousin died, the day the phone bill is due, the day the cable bill is due, the day my insurance had to be in by or it would be cancelled�.geesh�so much on such an insignificant day!! It is so weird�I�ve been edgy all damn day. I just can�t wait to get home, got to bed, and let this day be done with.
Yes, let me get home safe and let this dreaded day be done.