swiz swoon #9
November 12, 2003 � 8:59 p.m.

Second Entry Today

You didn�t have to prove me wrong�

but why the hell did you have to prove me right?

I don�t know what�s more frustrating about you�

the fact that I know you so well or the fact that you are so predictable in your capriciousness.

We came together again�after I had sworn it was over�after I had shed my tears and wallowed in my worries and disparaged my reputation�you came along, and I let you back in, and the second that I merely heard your voice, I relinquished my soul to you once again.

I am your concubine.

Willing and proud, I lay with you and hold you close and revere your words and praise your touch�all on my own I wait for you, hope for you, pray for you�love you.

As wrong as it is�so wrong, wrong, wrong�I dare to allow myself to love you.

To worship you.

To need you.

To want you.

To. Be. Yours.

You came to me, stood in front of me, pulled me into your heart and smothered my resolve. You came and touched me softly, moaned my name tenderly, kissed me gently, and stole away my fear. You came and laid next to me, curled in my arms while holding my hands grip me closer, sighing in contentment as I kissed your shoulder blade and called you my baby, snuggling my nose in the nape of your neck as I slipped into dreams�of you.

You came along, and I forgot all about my resolution and my anger and my sadness. You came along and I forgot to be afraid or ashamed or embarrassed. You came along and I became everything I always wanted to be but never dared to be�you came along�and�the world�the world seemed all right.

Only thing is�

You came along, and made me into someone I never wanted to be and I turned you into someone you always tried not to be�and as idiotic as it seems�us not being ourselves with each other makes us�happy.

I know, none of what I have just said makes any sense at all, and deep down I know that it�s more than likely that you really don�t care for me like I imagine you do�like you act like you do when we�re together�and I know that I am making a complete fool of myself as I bounce from emotion to emotion�and everyone thinks that I will just make a mess of my life in the end�but right now�

I really don�t care�I wait for our moments to come�so I can come alive in your eyes and you can die in my lap�moment to moment�.

Breath to breath�

Heart�to heart�.

You. And. I.

B-O-N-D-E-D

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