auspicious
October 25, 2003 � 5:25 p.m.
First Entry Today
Yesterday was so...hmmmm...auspicious would be the right word, I guess.
First, my boss comes over while I'm sneaking to type my entry before I head on out and tells me to go home...like 2 hours before I wanted to go home. Since I'm pissed off that I'm the only person that mandatorily has to work 6 days a week, I usually try to eek out as many overtime hours as possible. Monkey was NOT trying to hear it yesterday. He was nasty about it, though. He just came over and whispered it to me and said I already had like 87 hours clocked before I came in and I still had to get Friday and Saturday tallied. At first I just looked at him like "So?" but I could see that worried, kinda pissed look on his face so I just finished my entry and cleared out the rest of my work and went home.
I have not gotten home at 6:15 PM in like a year. By 8:00 PM I was completely bored and just itching for something to happen, and that's when it happened.
The call.
From Cowboy.
Of course he was asking for something...he never calls to say "Hey...how are you, I'm an asshole but I just wanted to check up on you and see how life is for you since after all...I did try to ruin it for you." No...he always calls when he wants to borrow something, namely my car. This time he waded through his false pleasantries, which I wasn't really responding to and he picked up on but he thought it was because I was sick and when I said, "No...I'm fine...so?" he sat there quiet after mumbling an "Oh". So I sighed heavily to get him to get on with it and he finally asked me to use my car. I said no...with almost no hesitation. I told him my brother wanted to use the car (well I didn't want to be a total bitch! He sounded so wounded when I said no...) So I asked him what he needed it for and he told me he had to get his stuff out of storage because he was just going to let them auction off Das Bitch's shit because she wasn't paying for it and he was sick of paying for it. After he told me there was couches and stuff in there and I could take whatever I wanted, I softened a bit...kinda touched that he would offer me to take the couches or whatever I needed for free when he is trying to sell it to whoever wants it.
Okay...so he hit the "sucker" button on my hip.
I told him I would come early and take him to get his stuff and look through it, but I needed him to call me and remind me or I wouldn't come.
He didn't call.
So I didn't go.
Oh well...his loss...I really didn't want to do it anyway.
See....the Fates are really loving me right now!!!
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I watched About A Boy with Hugh Grant, and after running the gambit of emotions over the cute little movie, I again found myself completely bored and restless. I called up and Jenny girl and after holding a ridiculously retarded and aimless conversation with her, she decided to take pit on me and come over and watch the tellie with me awhile. I made her breakfast (bitch is broke, ok?) and we sat and watched TV and she watched her first anime with me. I admit, catching Hellsing when she did might not have been the smartest thing to start her out on, but hey...I was damned if I was going to miss it because she was there.
I love her and all but damn...waiting for that to come on every week is like waiting for a check in the mail!
She crashed on the couch and I cleaned up and went to bed, leaving the beautiful Jenny with the straight, violet hair softly snoring on my very uncomfortable couch.
Damn...I love her...having a friend like her is the greatest thing in the world.
Too bad I'm not such a great friend...she was late to work because I didn't wake her up in time this morning.
Whoops!!
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I went to bed and laid there thinking about Swiz and laughing to myself about how fucked up it would be if he called to come over with Jenny on the couch and my brother due in at anytime.
I laid there, smoking a ciggy and singing along to Maxwell when my phone started thumping out "Baby Boy".
My heart skipped a beat and I laughed out loud.
That's his ring.
It was Swiz.
He chitchatted for a while and we made each other laugh over nonsense before he asked to come over to see me.
I told him the door was unlocked.
He came over, half sleep and beautiful as he slid his cold body in behind me and hugged me close. I half turned to smile at him and say, "What took you so long?"
I meant that in so many different ways and he chuckled and answered, "I don't know." and I took that so many different ways.
Of course we had sex...a lot noisier than usual for some reason...and a bit better, and then we lain there...smoking and joking around...laughing so loud we both periodically hissed "Shhhhhhhhhhh!" to each other before breaking out into childish laughter and poking each other.
It was a good time.
I wish it could have lasted forever.
He got up to leave, looking down at me and smiling again, reaching over to ruffle my hair as I leaned in to his palm and purred like a fat cat, and laughing as he tugged at my ear and said he would see me tonight at the Coast.
I watched him go...aching for him to stay...
I let him go...
and I let love stay.