what of it?!?!
October 18, 2003 � 5:19 p.m.

First Entry Today

I just wanna sleep.

Crawl out of my skin and into my bed and sleep like a vampire on "hiatus".

Sleep...sleep...and dream....

Last night was one of those classic, retro, high school kind of nights. Jenny came over and we got some movies and totally pigged out on some pizza, mozzarella sticks, chicken kickers, and hot fudge sundaes. Swiz called me to announce he wouldn't be coming out anytime this weekend (boo...hiss!!), but Fuzzy called to tell me he "missed his Thea...his pretty pig-tailed gal" from a party he was ripped at in Delaware. He might come and visit me today...but if he does it will suck because I actually have a schedule I have to keep to today and I won't be able to hang with him. He always calls me when he's hanging out having fun somewhere, telling me he misses me and just wanted to hear my voice.

I tell you...another time...another place...we would be SO in love...

*sigh*

Jenny and I was sooooooo stuffed by the end of the night and Jenny crashed on the couch while I stayed up and watched the next three episodes of Hellsing on cable, shooting the shit with Darryl.

Yeah...I'm an anime freak like that...what of it?!?!

I finally climbed into bed at 5:00, pissed off that Swiz didn't change his mind and call after all, put on my Bilal tape and drifted to sleep.

I woke up this morning with a fucking mountain of snot bubbling from my nose and my throat almost completely closed up.

That's right folks!!

I'M SIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIICK!!!

Fucking great timing, huh?

I haven't had sex with Swiz yet, and if I don't get knocked off by Monday, then lord knows how long it will be before I'm well enough or not bleeding and can have sex with him again.

Yeah...I'm pissed because being sick will keep me from dick...what of it?!?

Even I have my shallow, idiotic moments, kiddos.

I have to pull my shit together though, because tonight I am going to the Troc to see Satan's band. I am so excited!! I haven't seen him since he left here, and I am just dying to hear him sing live.

I just looooooove his voice!!!

***swoon***

I wanted to dress sexy but with this cold and parking and shit, I can't risk having my chest out, which mean I won't be able to give Satan a peep of the goods.

Yeah...I have sorta a crush on Satan...what of it?!?!

He never should have kissed me that time...that's what cinched it....

Uh...anyway...

Guess who has invited himself along!?!?!!

Come on...guess!!

You got it!!!!

Cowboy!!!

Can I say that I am NOT looking forward to him being there in the least? I told Jenny he could come, but if fucks around when I'm ready to leave then his stupid ass is as good as left...no joke.

And he better come up with some fucking gas and parking and toll money, too...or he will get left in Philly.

Yeah...I'm being a total bitch about it all...what of it?!??!