the muse is in full swing
2003-06-18 � 3:12 p.m.

mood-ecstatic

Don't turn away-Evanesence

"No...it wasn't just all you...you didn't imagine it. It was real for me too. I meant every minute of it." Ben Kirkley

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Oh my goodness...after being so dry for so long....I have done it. I finished my story "Fractured", wrote a poem last night at like 3am, started a story called "Soloman and Anastasia", wrote the synopsis for my Sandman Stories submission and....most of all...I have written the final story for by book. That's what my major stall has been. I didn't have a closing for the book. Now I do. It's about me and Cowboy...and the day he proposed to me...I named it "Three Kisses for Thea". I love the story. It is the perfect closing and at the end of it, instead of putting "the end", I put "the beginning"...because it was for me. And the first story ends with "the end" in the beginning of the book...I'm not making sense...I know...but I am so happy!!!

I can write again!! I am feeling it again!!! The bitch is back!!!

Whoooooooo!! Yeah!!

***Jumping around doing the Happy-So-Fuck-You dance***

(a divine cross between the Ed lover and Flava Flav dance)

Only one thing troubles me...since the break up, me and Cowboy have been making big changes and a lot of good things are happening to us individually...so...what does that say about US?!?!

Does it mean that we are better off without each other?

Or...and might I add, hopefully...

does it mean that we are pulling our lives together so when we get back together nothing will be in our way this time?

Damn man....talk about a buzz kill.

I think waaaaaaay too damn much.